Yes, it somehow happened after all: in love with an older man. What thrills me so much about this man? Well, it comes down mainly to the following:

- he simply looks incredibly good for his age
- I just feel incredibly safe and secure with this man
- every date is a dream
- I have to think about this man 24 hours a day!

I could gush about him every single day. The age gap between us is about 15 years. And that very point worries me in turn. Can a relationship like this really work? Will it all remain just a short dream? My head is full of so many thoughts. I should actually be happy. How can I just get these nagging thoughts out of my head?

In love with an older man

In love with an older man and totally blocked in everyday life

In love with an older man and therefore completely unable to perform at my best. As I've already hinted, I'm totally happy with this man, and at the same time all these thoughts plague me. All of this adds up to a rather unfortunate combination. I have an important and, above all, very responsible job in finance. But right now I'm definitely slipping a bit there. I'm simply in love, and that's exactly what keeps buzzing around in my head, or more precisely, this man keeps buzzing around in my head. Things are going pretty well in bed, too. Actually too well. That's another point that blocks my head in everyday life. I'm sitting over insurance contracts and in my thoughts I'm in bed with my partner. Sounds absurd, but it's still the reality. It's really very hard to just shake off these thoughts.

In love with an older man and caught between two stools

In love with an older man

As a young woman of just 19, I think about my parents all the time. What would they say if I came home with such an old man? Of course he's not really old, but compared to me he is. How others see me matters to me a great deal. I simply can't be as relaxed about this as some other people. Some people would just tell themselves it doesn't matter what other people say. My parents are really very conservative. It would be even worse if I presented them with a woman. That would practically mean the end of the world. In the end, I'll have to make a decision. Keep the relationship secret and live with a guilty conscience? Or bite the bullet after all and tell the truth?